We listen to it all day long, sometimes it can become annoying. It’s that voice in our head called ‘reason,’ ‘psyche,’ ‘ego’ or whatever. We talk to it all day long. At least I do. We are constantly making deals with it. I mostly keep my end of the bargain, when I don’t I feel guilt.
I’ve been alone for a long time, and in my travelling to a foreign county I’ve further isolated myself. That voice in my head is some days all that I hear. I know it’s not healthy, but that voice and I always look at the world and we wonder. Always wonder. We wonder what Ray would have thought. We discuss whether or not he would have liked a particular something. I’m constantly posing that question and it’s driving me crazy.
Ray would have loved this trip and God knows that I would have loved his company. Not to mention his opinions and his judgment.
On being alone…You have to trust your own judgment. I’m finding that since I don’t have a second opinion, I hash and rehash everything in my head. Now there is the beauty of youth. You don’t ever go to that much trouble when you’re young, you just have the time of your life without ever even thinking about it. I watch them doing it here. It’s still inspiring.
Ray, you would have loved the tomatoes in December here.